User: I feel really low, my brother has schizophrenia really bad, hes incredibly agressive toward me and my family although not actually physically violent. dad left some years ago ...
User: I feel really low, my brother has schizophrenia really bad, hes incredibly agressive toward me and my family although not actually physically violent. dad left some years ago so all order in the household has been my mums burden to bear along with two jobs to keep us clothed and fed properly, i dont like to complain or express how i feel to my family because i dont want to appear weak or cause any more reason for my parents to feel guilt having let another son down, as they already feel responsible for my brothers condition, i feel angry and frustrated? not sure what to do with myself?
Buddy Hi, thanks for coming to us. This must be really difficult to deal with and I can understand why you want to take care not to over complicate the situation. But it seems like your silence is building up inside you causing your frustration. Have you ever expressed your feelings to your family before? If so, how did they react? Is there anyone else, inside or outside your family you’re able to talk to?
User: No i havnt really talked to my family because like i say i dont really want to give them an extra burden to carry, i do potentially have friends i could talk to, but i cant help but feel it would seem like im just looking for attention if you nkow what i mean. I have good and bad days but most the time i just feel like smacking someone cuz i feel so angry
Buddy: Yeah I see how its easy to feel like that, from what I gathered youre dealing with this on your own, and also feel that others are more important than yourself, eg. Your mum & brother. While it’s admirable that you’re being selfless, there’s also negatives coming out of this, like your anger. Think if a friend came to you with a problem, would you think they were seeking attention? Its more likely this is your own perception, because you have a selfless character. Another issue here is finding a positive way to vent your anger, do you feel this could be something we could work towards?
This time last year I was a mess, I couldn’t have been much lower. It’s amazing to think how the right support can really change your perspective on every aspect of life. Thanks a lot for all your help guys. - Andrew